Eve's Evolving Freedom
I scarcely remember breathing but now my breath is labored, panting as the deer paths for the water brooks (psalm 43:1). I’m excited and anxious about this newly found space that seems to grow larger and larger in my mind, with each breath. Freedom! Yes that’s what it is, but I was free before. Free to make choices and decision even without Adam. That one bite freed me in some way. Yes, with each taste of the bittersweet fruit more decisions must be made, shall I share this with Adam? Of course then he too shall be free. CRUNCH! The only bite heard throughout eternity. Almost as loud as the nails . . . wait how did I know that?

With freedom comes thought. Can darkness be light? Can freedom be suffocating? With freedom, come answers…Answer. Darkness is only light when there is no light. I scarcely remember the light now that it’s gone. Answer…Freedom can be suffocating when the choices you make chokes the life out of everything around you. I scarcely remember life because now I am dying.

And that newly found space. That freedom, really isn’t space or freedom at all. It is a void, which grow with each disobedient decision made and each murdering answer given. It’s a void that keeps me panting as the deer pants for the water brooks, so now pants my soul for you O’ God. My soul thirst for the living God. So that I may be free indeed. Free without damming decisions and free without murderous answers. Free while breathing the breath of life once again. For my freedom, God, I thank you. For without it I could not choose you.